The chemo session absolutely smashed me, I have never felt so ill in my life and that includes life threatening man flu!!
I was bed ridden for over a week and basically would have been so happy to not wake in the morning.
My blood pressure dropped so low that I couldn't stand for longer than a few seconds and did collapse one night whist going to the bathroom.
They have altered all my drugs again, and I have stopped taking my blood pressure tablets.
I have felt better the last couple of days which is good, my biggest problem at the moment is that I literally cannot walk at all !! I am getting a wheelchair today so I can at least get out of the house.
Im off to London on Thursday for a full scan which will hopefully show what is going on.
I know that this cancer will kill me but i was thinking it would be more like Elaines where we had some good breaks between chemo where we lived a normal life. At the moment normal life to me is a long gone memory, Im hoping it will come back but hey ho if it doesn't so be it.
I will try and update the blog more often, but as you can imagine when you feel like absolute death it isn't a priority . I haven't replied to loads of emails. private messages, im really sorry and it probably sounds quite pathetic to say it was just too hard!!